addicted to facebook's restaurant city. can't stop myself from playing it. i know my obsession over it will die down like word challenge, geo challenge and pet society.
gp essay test tomorrow
have watched X-MEN ORIGINS: WOLVERINE. & IT'S AWESOME. okay, i'm not a guy & therefore i don't have that high expectations but really, it's good.
celebrated yaojie's, edwin's & jingchao's birthday canoeing style.
a typical birthday BASH goes like this: (only applicable to guys)
1. sing birthday song
2. cut cake
3. the running starts (the birthday kids run for their life while the rest of the team runs to catch them)
4. birthday kid caught
5. pain/scream/struggle session starts (intense pain that comes in the form of ultimate direct pain to the crotch area)
6. cool down
7. mess session starts (smashing of cakes on faces)
8. pain/scream/struggle session part two starts.
9. clean up
10. team meal.
i getting fat ):(but i still can do 8 pullups) (:
i still need to blog about canoeing stuff.
i HOPE FOR THE BEST the next canoeing team captains, vice-captains & quartermaster. a big team you guys have & i sincerely wish (fathope) that everyone will pull through their 2 years. it may seem long, but TIME REALLY DOES FLY. & there will DEFINITELY be times when you feel like giving up, but think about your teammates. draw your sources of motivation from everywhere. it all boils down to you YOU YOU. if any guy, at this point of time, still can't do pullups, one word, disappointing. as for girls, by end of term3. cause that was when i did my first virgin pullup, i think. i wrote it down somewhere... there're come to this point in time, one day, that you'll become addicted to your canoeing lifestyle. now that i've left it, i miss it. i found the fatigue, the pain, becoming addictive. seriously, i really liked the tired tired pain pain feeling everytime after training. tell yourself, 2 years of training for only a max of 5mins race. & might not even win at all.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
inspired
went to church for the first time in many week. how shameful ):
anyway, i got so inspired by junyang's canoeing post & what he said about me:
Fiona: Okay the female captain. Only whines in gym rather than encouraging. Only gives trouble rather than pleasant surprises. But whatever. Thats FIONA for us. I appreciate you coming early to open the damn shed when damn nicholas was on the bus. I appreciate all those sweets we got from you that made us remember those special days. Always making sure nothing’s left behind after training at the pontoon and grass patch. As you are the only girl in the team (the other one is feMALE), it somehow just triggers the guys team to work harder? The last few weeks before competition, I’ve seen you putting your heart and soul into rowing. I feel almost as proud as edwin for you. HAHA
that i've decided to do the same (: by not now duh, gotta do my maths & econs & gp.
anyway, i got so inspired by junyang's canoeing post & what he said about me:
Fiona: Okay the female captain. Only whines in gym rather than encouraging. Only gives trouble rather than pleasant surprises. But whatever. Thats FIONA for us. I appreciate you coming early to open the damn shed when damn nicholas was on the bus. I appreciate all those sweets we got from you that made us remember those special days. Always making sure nothing’s left behind after training at the pontoon and grass patch. As you are the only girl in the team (the other one is feMALE), it somehow just triggers the guys team to work harder? The last few weeks before competition, I’ve seen you putting your heart and soul into rowing. I feel almost as proud as edwin for you. HAHA
that i've decided to do the same (: by not now duh, gotta do my maths & econs & gp.
Friday, April 24, 2009
fb
photos
credits to the respective facebookers
the awesome c2 pair
the k4, rowing as ONE.
after they've crossed the finish line
k1 1000m heats
k2
k2 500m FINALS: 3rd!
we'll be coming down the lanes as we come~
the girls team! :D
TEAM PJC CANOEING <3
I AM GOING TO MISS THIS PLACE (:(:
credits to the respective facebookers
the awesome c2 pair
the k4, rowing as ONE.
after they've crossed the finish line
k1 1000m heats
k2
k2 500m FINALS: 3rd!
we'll be coming down the lanes as we come~
k2 partners!
the girls team! :D
the senior team
the senior team plus teacher plus coach.
TEAM PJC CANOEING <3
I AM GOING TO MISS THIS PLACE (:(:
i've decided that both facebook & friendster were too messy.
so i deleted my friendster account
& deleted all my applications (except for those that are already facebook intergrated into).
& i'm starting to re-add apps so that it wouldn't be too messy
doing maths for maths re-test tomorrow.
WTS is this
so i deleted my friendster account
& deleted all my applications (except for those that are already facebook intergrated into).
& i'm starting to re-add apps so that it wouldn't be too messy
doing maths for maths re-test tomorrow.
WTS is this
finally
FINALLY, A DAY WHICH I CAN SQUEEZE A LITTLE TIME TO BLOG
TONS TO SAY (: long & wordy post.
13april monday
guess who turned 18?! like duhhh, who else?! thanks to those who wished me a very happy birthday & presents (:(: yayy, i've found another april 13 babehh, bernice! well, school was AS USUAL with exceptions of 'happy birthday's everywhere i went & 'all the best for tomorrow's. it started with the juniors singing happy birthday when they were doing their drystrokes. luckily not many people were in school yet, can be embarassing tho! proceeded to give out the party bags to teammates & classmates the rest of the day. i didn't do much on this day cause the VERY NEXT DAY was NATIONALS. needed every bit of rest that i could get, didn't bother with homework at all. it was rest rest rest... yupp, so that was pretty much my birthday. i know BORINGG RIGHT? but i put my rest for nationals at a higher priority.
thank you team for the amazing volleyball. now i have to edit my wishlist. my very own volleyball, but a pity it's pink ): i seriously don't know when or how i'm gonna use cause it's covered in all you guys special messages. i think i'm just gonna like 'frame it up'. haha. thanks anyway.
thank you darling juniors for the sports bra. it's a tad toooo small but mummy says the thing will expand. thanks for the ULTRA REFLECTIVE BALLOOON. my friends were like, FIONA, don't bring the balloon too low, later will upskirt! hahah. thanks for the wellwishes! row & study hard.
thanks joash! i'm gonna die of sweetness. they know who to find then when they find my body.
thank you ruoning connie carmen jamie shuhui shareefa for the FOREVER 21 vouchers & markers. i promise to really study hard now & TRY MY BEST, to stop falling asleep during lessons. hey, i've improved a lot these past few days, don't cha think?
thanks carmen for the pillow. hahah, i think you need it now more than i do!
thank you joanna & stephanie for the cup & cookies. omg, best homemade cookies ever, HANDS DOWN. it's seriously as good as the famous amos cookies. MAKE MOREEEE! whhaaaa, why give me so little? haha.
thank you lien for the hairbands! ahh, confirm will use! handy dandy (:
thank you shaunauld & pooky for the whoopee cushion. seriously, i've always wanted those kind of 'play a joke on people' kind of presents. haven't actually used it yet, scared someone so heavy later sit on it & it just bursts. i received 4 joke cockroaches as my birthday present in secondary school.
thank you sherril for the perfume! LOVE IT.
thanks siti for the unique cup!
thanks edwin for homemade chocolates. it melted.
thank you meimei for the handmade popup card! until now, i still don't know how to correctly make those kind of pop-up cards. haha. but my art is still better than yours.
thanks natnat for the sweets. this is one of the first few times you acutally gave me something for my birthday. HAHAAH.
14 april tuesday
happy birthday mark ho!
happy birthday demetrius!
NATIONALS DAY 1
my 1000m k1 race was the 1st race of the day. i told myself that i couldn't be nervous if not i'll be like a nervous wreck like during NJCC, cannot race well. after warmups, got into my boat and left for the starting line. headwind quite strong, but cannot blame the wind(derwin). i felt comfortable using my sexy yellow raptor. i know it's heavy & like the rest of my competitors were using nelos & shanghais, but who cares, at least i do mroe efficient strokes on a raptor than that nelo-that-causes-abrasions-blisters-and-nothing-but-absolute-pain nelo. haha. came in 3rd & it was on to semi-finals. i know that i could have done better but i did what i was supposed to do.
next race was the c2s, nicholas & yaojie. GJWD! straight finals. we were proud of them. haha, juniors had to sit out in the sun, tent reserved for seniors. i wasn't really happy with the juniors attitude on this first day. they were either supposed to help out, study or watch the rest. this was supposed to a serious affair, not some 'yayy, i'm able to skip school' affair. you juniors were down because we wanted you to be motivated & also learn from the racers. i remember when i was a junior. i didn't even study at all. all i wanted to do was watch all the races & help out as much as i can, not let my seniors do much cause they were supposed to rest. times have totally changed.
k4 1000m, edwin guohui junyang & joseph. sigh, blame the bloody rudder. i know that you guys were acutally able to win but... could see that you guys were rowing as ONE. not 4 or 1,3, or 2,2 but 1. c1 1000m, james. i believe that if you had worked harder before, this nationals would have paid off for you. you still have one more year though. c2 1000m, holy divers. anyway, we were really proud of you & samng during NJCC & prolly had higher expectations for nationals. k2 1000m, yuping & jiehan. though direction was wayyyy bad, i believe that you guys gave it all you've got. your 2 years weren't exactly wasted. if you believe you fought a good race, then the case is closed. k1 1000m, mengkoon, GJWD! straight finals!
just as we were getting to go home, me & mengkoon were delievered some heavy blows. BECAUSE i didn't pass my maths retest (dammit), i was to be pulled out from nationals. when i heard that, i just broke down into tears. drama drama drama. means i couldn't even row my k1 semis and k2 heats w mengkoon. mk argued hard for me, reasoning out for me as i was in no state to talk at all. i just couldn't take it. 2 years of rowing & the school was going to do this to me?! when mr ang said that i should prolly get prepared to go to school the next day, i cried again. we cried alot, ALOT. okay, prolly me only. we didn't even change or have dinner with the guys, we went straight home. too upset. but talking to mk on the bus, i began to feel better. i wouldn't let this 'not being able to row' matter rest. once i got home, i broke down & told my mum. she wasn't happy too.
it will be okay with me if like they took me out a month before the competition, but ON THE FIRST DAY OF COMPETITION?! what's the point of taking me out at that point of time? i would even be too upset to study. no point at all. mummy was ready to go down to school with me the next day to talk to the p to let me row & i told mr ang. awhile later, he said that i could row my k2 already but not still not my k1 cause they could penalise me but not mengkoon. i was still upset, but slightly better. i fell asleep crying.
15 april wednesday
i tried to use my rage & anguish to row my k2 with mk for our 500m but i think we were much too affected. we could have done better, we knew it. 3rd for heats, going to semis. i was still sad the whole day cause i wasn't able to row for my k1 semis the next day. i asked, since i had k2 semis the next day, why can't the school still let my continue for my k1 semis at the same time too? they reasoned out, it's because i wasn't originally supposed to row k2 at all. i just broke down again & again & again. it hurt me really badly. we had to go to school to see ms usha kumar (stand-in vp). i learnt that what the school was trying to do was to let me learnt a SERIOUS LESSON. it wasn't a punishment, but a lesson to be learnt because i failed my maths retest. & because i failed, there were consequences for me. me & mk waited & waited & waited. when it was my turn, i cried again. when it was mk's turn, she cried again. & again, we were too upset to eat & went home. we were going to use this anguish to row and prove our worthiness.
anyway, c2 500m nicholas & yaojie. GJWD! straight finals again. C1 samng, if you felt that you rowed your best, then the case is closed. k4 500m, i am sooo proud of your guys. your determination could be seen 500m away. haha. seeing you guys row was really motivating. though no wins, the whole team pats you guys on the back for a great effort. one of the best sets! k2 500m yuping & jiehan, again, direction. well done, at least you guys didn't capsize, like our seniors did. clap clap.
when i got home, my mum really wanted to go & meet the p the next day early in the morning to help me fight back et me row k1 & i'm really thankful for nicholas for sort of mobilising the team in case i could row. upset. around 10plus, i received a call from nic saying that i could row my k1 again. i just cried again, still unsure whether was it true or not. i immediately called mk to tell her the good news! my ang called to tell me to double confirm with me. thank you so much. i went to sleep with a smile on my face. i felt like a humongous burden had lifted from my shoulders
16 april, thursday
SEMI-FINALS. only my k1 race & k2 race with mk. i'm thankful for the senior team that came down to support me. i rowed like i never rowed before. i used all the sadness & frustrations & thrashed it all out onto the water. hitting my best timing for 1km of 5.06mins, pb, though i didn't win.k2 500m, i thrashed out all my burdens & i think mk too. for our semis, we came in FIRST. the feeling was great. SMILES :D :D but it's only semis, cannot be too happy and complacent. but, YAYY!
17 april friday
FINALS. mk's 1ooom k1, me & mk's 500m k2, nicholas & yaojie's 1000m & 500m c2. mk's race first eventof the day & i was really happy for her though she got 4th. i think it's a really good feat accomplished. the c2 races were really exhilarating. for 1000m, everyone was like fighting over the 2 binoculars. mr ang seemed really anxious. the whole pj area was like shouting cheering like mad when we saw that our boat has a really good chance of winning. & the amazing duo crossed the finish line. they achieved 2nd! SILVER! AHHHH! the whole tent was super proud proud happy happy. & yaojie LOST HIS OAKLEY'S CAUSE NICHOLAS CAPSIZED after crossing the finish line. nicholas was like super prepared to save his o's but definitely not yaojie. HAHA. GOOD JOB WELL DONE. CLAP CLAP CLAP.
next was their 500m c2. the whole tent was extremely nervous as the race started. they were going against the same competitors. were they going to get the same result again? better? or worse? as the pj boat inched nearer and nearer the whole tent went bonkers. SIAO i tell you. everyone just looked at us. haha, we weren't doing united cheering but just shouting. they crossed the line. *insert mad screaming cheering and guys screaming like girls and everybody just going bonkers and plain madness here*. nicholas tan xingtai & shuy yaojie came in 1ST PLACE!! :D:D:D:D:D the whole pioneer team, especially the seniors & mr ang just screamed at the top of our lungs! till my throat went sore. 1st first FIRST FIRST! can you beat that!! GOLD GOLD GOLD! (:(:(:(: i'm am soooo proud of them. they, truly, deserved it. every one bit. their training, every bit of it, was not wasted.
next race was k2 5oom, me & mk. tho truly happy, we had to focus on our own race. the sun was seriously beating down on us as we waited for our race to take place. 'start within 10s, GO' first stroke, next stroke, left stroke again, next stroke, kicking hard. this was the last race of my canoeing life. i rowed for the k4 guys, for mengkoon, for my ang, for the c2 guys, for the winners, for the losers, for the people that have helped me so much. never did i want to slow down during any part of the 500m. even till the last 6 buoys, pick up, couldn't accelerate much, never mind, maintain stability, keep direction, kick harder. last 3 buoys, burst. cannot burst much, never mind, longer harder faster pulls. cross the finish line. saw that we came in THIRD. 3rd! :D YES! i just nearly died. most fufilling race, EVER. i was so tired that when i bent down in my boat & looked up, i just saw white. i became really dizzy and started crying. i was happy & at the same time didn't know what was going on. like those drunk feelings. people became worried, tons of hassle going on. i know i was offered a seat cause i couldn't stand. my legs felt total jelly. was given porcari sweat to drink. & then this lady came up, took the bottle from me & wanted to pour it over my head to cool me down. i put up my hands in retailation & to no avail, she just poured. like WTH, my hair's gonna attract ants! mr ang found out that it was porcari sweat & requested for water to wash my hair. HAHAHAHAHAH. this incident, upon looking back, was HILARIOUS! HAHAHAHHAHA.
as one by one people went up to collect their medals, this whole canoeing thing, is not a thing. it's our lives. this medals are what our lives have been spent on. this 2 years have been the best 2 years of my life. yes, though tough painful and tiring, it was worth it. this bronze medal that i received, i know i've pushed my limits.
now marks the start of breaking foodban :D
icecream! at island creamery. yayyy, mr ang treated us to 'one of everything' & out came a mountain of icecream. within 5 mins plus, it was ALL GONE. ALL GONE, we were monsters, MWHAHAH. next mad jacks, felt queasy eating the fries & fish. guess our stomachs weren't used to it.
edwin's house next. learnt a drinking game from mengyean. it was great that mr ang, kahtteng and the other super seniors could join us for this mini celebration. everyone was like too tired to actually go out & celebrate. tons of chips & drinking. jiehan & edwin looked really drunk & everyone just had to make him drunk. after the ss left, we senior team decided the sleep, too tired. edwin's bed was big enough for 4 people & mk & i already koped 2 places and the rest of the guys fought over the last 2 spots. haha. fun fun. sleepover! hahahah. we talked for like 30mins or so & then it was knockout for me as well. slept around 3plus :D an hour or so later, i know i heard somebody snoring but was too tired to figure out who. 11am macdonalds breakfast!
18 april saturday
went home to sleep before heading out for jacon's chalet. yupp, NSFCC. we had a blast. nat was totally slow at playing slapjack. dinner was AWESOME. i could finally eat everything at buffets again! the otahs were SPICY SPICY. jacon's cake was HUGE i tell you. best fruit cake i ever had. then everyone just started talking around the table. reminiscing about our secondary school days is never a boring thing. i was really happy to see shuyi yiling allicia & sihui again! too bad may couldn't come. sleeping was them was funfunfun, though squeezy. hahah. before that we had a little bowling, table hockey and some punching buttons disco game. FUN! we totally CMI lahh. i love those girls. the guys there were LOVED. I MISS THE FAIRSIANS <3 our clique has got to be the biggest clique in fairfield. around 12 plus, we watched the arsenal vs chelsea match & chelsea won!!! yayyy! love petr cech! arsenal's goalkeeper totally suck lahh, why does he always have to run out to catch the ball? so risky lah. dumb dumb. i used to support arsenal because of patrick vieria, but ever since he left, arsenal has just been going down down down. chelsea should just take alex out lahh. the whole match he only had the ball a few times. we played drinking games at the same time too. then the guys got so inspired after the match that they went out to play a little football of their own while the girls watched paris hilton's my new bff & took photos with the sexy paul franks! :D:D smile smile.
then we went up to sleep & talked for an hour or so. by the time we slept it was like 4 plus. yiling only fell asleep an hour later and at 6am shuyi & allicia left.
19 april, sunday
by the time i woke up which was 10am. most of the people had left. the people that checked out together were me yiling brian and jacon. went to see the new tampines mall & ate burger king. after not stepping in to burger king after a long long long time, i just glared at my burger and onion rings on my tray. they were soooo small. & it was a double mushroom swiss burger somemore. DOUBLE. so small. anyway, the trip home, we talked somemore & i thank God for now i had someone from fairfield & was in the clique that stayed near me. jacon & i talked more about out school life. went home, didn't go to church (i'm so sorry) and did homework and slept.
this is the end of 1 week of activties. photos up later & more wordy posts coming up. i've still yet to edit my profiles!
TONS TO SAY (: long & wordy post.
13april monday
guess who turned 18?! like duhhh, who else?! thanks to those who wished me a very happy birthday & presents (:(: yayy, i've found another april 13 babehh, bernice! well, school was AS USUAL with exceptions of 'happy birthday's everywhere i went & 'all the best for tomorrow's. it started with the juniors singing happy birthday when they were doing their drystrokes. luckily not many people were in school yet, can be embarassing tho! proceeded to give out the party bags to teammates & classmates the rest of the day. i didn't do much on this day cause the VERY NEXT DAY was NATIONALS. needed every bit of rest that i could get, didn't bother with homework at all. it was rest rest rest... yupp, so that was pretty much my birthday. i know BORINGG RIGHT? but i put my rest for nationals at a higher priority.
thank you team for the amazing volleyball. now i have to edit my wishlist. my very own volleyball, but a pity it's pink ): i seriously don't know when or how i'm gonna use cause it's covered in all you guys special messages. i think i'm just gonna like 'frame it up'. haha. thanks anyway.
thank you darling juniors for the sports bra. it's a tad toooo small but mummy says the thing will expand. thanks for the ULTRA REFLECTIVE BALLOOON. my friends were like, FIONA, don't bring the balloon too low, later will upskirt! hahah. thanks for the wellwishes! row & study hard.
thanks joash! i'm gonna die of sweetness. they know who to find then when they find my body.
thank you ruoning connie carmen jamie shuhui shareefa for the FOREVER 21 vouchers & markers. i promise to really study hard now & TRY MY BEST, to stop falling asleep during lessons. hey, i've improved a lot these past few days, don't cha think?
thanks carmen for the pillow. hahah, i think you need it now more than i do!
thank you joanna & stephanie for the cup & cookies. omg, best homemade cookies ever, HANDS DOWN. it's seriously as good as the famous amos cookies. MAKE MOREEEE! whhaaaa, why give me so little? haha.
thank you lien for the hairbands! ahh, confirm will use! handy dandy (:
thank you shaunauld & pooky for the whoopee cushion. seriously, i've always wanted those kind of 'play a joke on people' kind of presents. haven't actually used it yet, scared someone so heavy later sit on it & it just bursts. i received 4 joke cockroaches as my birthday present in secondary school.
thank you sherril for the perfume! LOVE IT.
thanks siti for the unique cup!
thanks edwin for homemade chocolates. it melted.
thank you meimei for the handmade popup card! until now, i still don't know how to correctly make those kind of pop-up cards. haha. but my art is still better than yours.
thanks natnat for the sweets. this is one of the first few times you acutally gave me something for my birthday. HAHAAH.
14 april tuesday
happy birthday mark ho!
happy birthday demetrius!
NATIONALS DAY 1
my 1000m k1 race was the 1st race of the day. i told myself that i couldn't be nervous if not i'll be like a nervous wreck like during NJCC, cannot race well. after warmups, got into my boat and left for the starting line. headwind quite strong, but cannot blame the wind(derwin). i felt comfortable using my sexy yellow raptor. i know it's heavy & like the rest of my competitors were using nelos & shanghais, but who cares, at least i do mroe efficient strokes on a raptor than that nelo-that-causes-abrasions-blisters-and-nothing-but-absolute-pain nelo. haha. came in 3rd & it was on to semi-finals. i know that i could have done better but i did what i was supposed to do.
next race was the c2s, nicholas & yaojie. GJWD! straight finals. we were proud of them. haha, juniors had to sit out in the sun, tent reserved for seniors. i wasn't really happy with the juniors attitude on this first day. they were either supposed to help out, study or watch the rest. this was supposed to a serious affair, not some 'yayy, i'm able to skip school' affair. you juniors were down because we wanted you to be motivated & also learn from the racers. i remember when i was a junior. i didn't even study at all. all i wanted to do was watch all the races & help out as much as i can, not let my seniors do much cause they were supposed to rest. times have totally changed.
k4 1000m, edwin guohui junyang & joseph. sigh, blame the bloody rudder. i know that you guys were acutally able to win but... could see that you guys were rowing as ONE. not 4 or 1,3, or 2,2 but 1. c1 1000m, james. i believe that if you had worked harder before, this nationals would have paid off for you. you still have one more year though. c2 1000m, holy divers. anyway, we were really proud of you & samng during NJCC & prolly had higher expectations for nationals. k2 1000m, yuping & jiehan. though direction was wayyyy bad, i believe that you guys gave it all you've got. your 2 years weren't exactly wasted. if you believe you fought a good race, then the case is closed. k1 1000m, mengkoon, GJWD! straight finals!
just as we were getting to go home, me & mengkoon were delievered some heavy blows. BECAUSE i didn't pass my maths retest (dammit), i was to be pulled out from nationals. when i heard that, i just broke down into tears. drama drama drama. means i couldn't even row my k1 semis and k2 heats w mengkoon. mk argued hard for me, reasoning out for me as i was in no state to talk at all. i just couldn't take it. 2 years of rowing & the school was going to do this to me?! when mr ang said that i should prolly get prepared to go to school the next day, i cried again. we cried alot, ALOT. okay, prolly me only. we didn't even change or have dinner with the guys, we went straight home. too upset. but talking to mk on the bus, i began to feel better. i wouldn't let this 'not being able to row' matter rest. once i got home, i broke down & told my mum. she wasn't happy too.
it will be okay with me if like they took me out a month before the competition, but ON THE FIRST DAY OF COMPETITION?! what's the point of taking me out at that point of time? i would even be too upset to study. no point at all. mummy was ready to go down to school with me the next day to talk to the p to let me row & i told mr ang. awhile later, he said that i could row my k2 already but not still not my k1 cause they could penalise me but not mengkoon. i was still upset, but slightly better. i fell asleep crying.
15 april wednesday
i tried to use my rage & anguish to row my k2 with mk for our 500m but i think we were much too affected. we could have done better, we knew it. 3rd for heats, going to semis. i was still sad the whole day cause i wasn't able to row for my k1 semis the next day. i asked, since i had k2 semis the next day, why can't the school still let my continue for my k1 semis at the same time too? they reasoned out, it's because i wasn't originally supposed to row k2 at all. i just broke down again & again & again. it hurt me really badly. we had to go to school to see ms usha kumar (stand-in vp). i learnt that what the school was trying to do was to let me learnt a SERIOUS LESSON. it wasn't a punishment, but a lesson to be learnt because i failed my maths retest. & because i failed, there were consequences for me. me & mk waited & waited & waited. when it was my turn, i cried again. when it was mk's turn, she cried again. & again, we were too upset to eat & went home. we were going to use this anguish to row and prove our worthiness.
anyway, c2 500m nicholas & yaojie. GJWD! straight finals again. C1 samng, if you felt that you rowed your best, then the case is closed. k4 500m, i am sooo proud of your guys. your determination could be seen 500m away. haha. seeing you guys row was really motivating. though no wins, the whole team pats you guys on the back for a great effort. one of the best sets! k2 500m yuping & jiehan, again, direction. well done, at least you guys didn't capsize, like our seniors did. clap clap.
when i got home, my mum really wanted to go & meet the p the next day early in the morning to help me fight back et me row k1 & i'm really thankful for nicholas for sort of mobilising the team in case i could row. upset. around 10plus, i received a call from nic saying that i could row my k1 again. i just cried again, still unsure whether was it true or not. i immediately called mk to tell her the good news! my ang called to tell me to double confirm with me. thank you so much. i went to sleep with a smile on my face. i felt like a humongous burden had lifted from my shoulders
16 april, thursday
SEMI-FINALS. only my k1 race & k2 race with mk. i'm thankful for the senior team that came down to support me. i rowed like i never rowed before. i used all the sadness & frustrations & thrashed it all out onto the water. hitting my best timing for 1km of 5.06mins, pb, though i didn't win.k2 500m, i thrashed out all my burdens & i think mk too. for our semis, we came in FIRST. the feeling was great. SMILES :D :D but it's only semis, cannot be too happy and complacent. but, YAYY!
17 april friday
FINALS. mk's 1ooom k1, me & mk's 500m k2, nicholas & yaojie's 1000m & 500m c2. mk's race first eventof the day & i was really happy for her though she got 4th. i think it's a really good feat accomplished. the c2 races were really exhilarating. for 1000m, everyone was like fighting over the 2 binoculars. mr ang seemed really anxious. the whole pj area was like shouting cheering like mad when we saw that our boat has a really good chance of winning. & the amazing duo crossed the finish line. they achieved 2nd! SILVER! AHHHH! the whole tent was super proud proud happy happy. & yaojie LOST HIS OAKLEY'S CAUSE NICHOLAS CAPSIZED after crossing the finish line. nicholas was like super prepared to save his o's but definitely not yaojie. HAHA. GOOD JOB WELL DONE. CLAP CLAP CLAP.
next was their 500m c2. the whole tent was extremely nervous as the race started. they were going against the same competitors. were they going to get the same result again? better? or worse? as the pj boat inched nearer and nearer the whole tent went bonkers. SIAO i tell you. everyone just looked at us. haha, we weren't doing united cheering but just shouting. they crossed the line. *insert mad screaming cheering and guys screaming like girls and everybody just going bonkers and plain madness here*. nicholas tan xingtai & shuy yaojie came in 1ST PLACE!! :D:D:D:D:D the whole pioneer team, especially the seniors & mr ang just screamed at the top of our lungs! till my throat went sore. 1st first FIRST FIRST! can you beat that!! GOLD GOLD GOLD! (:(:(:(: i'm am soooo proud of them. they, truly, deserved it. every one bit. their training, every bit of it, was not wasted.
next race was k2 5oom, me & mk. tho truly happy, we had to focus on our own race. the sun was seriously beating down on us as we waited for our race to take place. 'start within 10s, GO' first stroke, next stroke, left stroke again, next stroke, kicking hard. this was the last race of my canoeing life. i rowed for the k4 guys, for mengkoon, for my ang, for the c2 guys, for the winners, for the losers, for the people that have helped me so much. never did i want to slow down during any part of the 500m. even till the last 6 buoys, pick up, couldn't accelerate much, never mind, maintain stability, keep direction, kick harder. last 3 buoys, burst. cannot burst much, never mind, longer harder faster pulls. cross the finish line. saw that we came in THIRD. 3rd! :D YES! i just nearly died. most fufilling race, EVER. i was so tired that when i bent down in my boat & looked up, i just saw white. i became really dizzy and started crying. i was happy & at the same time didn't know what was going on. like those drunk feelings. people became worried, tons of hassle going on. i know i was offered a seat cause i couldn't stand. my legs felt total jelly. was given porcari sweat to drink. & then this lady came up, took the bottle from me & wanted to pour it over my head to cool me down. i put up my hands in retailation & to no avail, she just poured. like WTH, my hair's gonna attract ants! mr ang found out that it was porcari sweat & requested for water to wash my hair. HAHAHAHAHAH. this incident, upon looking back, was HILARIOUS! HAHAHAHHAHA.
as one by one people went up to collect their medals, this whole canoeing thing, is not a thing. it's our lives. this medals are what our lives have been spent on. this 2 years have been the best 2 years of my life. yes, though tough painful and tiring, it was worth it. this bronze medal that i received, i know i've pushed my limits.
now marks the start of breaking foodban :D
icecream! at island creamery. yayyy, mr ang treated us to 'one of everything' & out came a mountain of icecream. within 5 mins plus, it was ALL GONE. ALL GONE, we were monsters, MWHAHAH. next mad jacks, felt queasy eating the fries & fish. guess our stomachs weren't used to it.
edwin's house next. learnt a drinking game from mengyean. it was great that mr ang, kahtteng and the other super seniors could join us for this mini celebration. everyone was like too tired to actually go out & celebrate. tons of chips & drinking. jiehan & edwin looked really drunk & everyone just had to make him drunk. after the ss left, we senior team decided the sleep, too tired. edwin's bed was big enough for 4 people & mk & i already koped 2 places and the rest of the guys fought over the last 2 spots. haha. fun fun. sleepover! hahahah. we talked for like 30mins or so & then it was knockout for me as well. slept around 3plus :D an hour or so later, i know i heard somebody snoring but was too tired to figure out who. 11am macdonalds breakfast!
18 april saturday
went home to sleep before heading out for jacon's chalet. yupp, NSFCC. we had a blast. nat was totally slow at playing slapjack. dinner was AWESOME. i could finally eat everything at buffets again! the otahs were SPICY SPICY. jacon's cake was HUGE i tell you. best fruit cake i ever had. then everyone just started talking around the table. reminiscing about our secondary school days is never a boring thing. i was really happy to see shuyi yiling allicia & sihui again! too bad may couldn't come. sleeping was them was funfunfun, though squeezy. hahah. before that we had a little bowling, table hockey and some punching buttons disco game. FUN! we totally CMI lahh. i love those girls. the guys there were LOVED. I MISS THE FAIRSIANS <3 our clique has got to be the biggest clique in fairfield. around 12 plus, we watched the arsenal vs chelsea match & chelsea won!!! yayyy! love petr cech! arsenal's goalkeeper totally suck lahh, why does he always have to run out to catch the ball? so risky lah. dumb dumb. i used to support arsenal because of patrick vieria, but ever since he left, arsenal has just been going down down down. chelsea should just take alex out lahh. the whole match he only had the ball a few times. we played drinking games at the same time too. then the guys got so inspired after the match that they went out to play a little football of their own while the girls watched paris hilton's my new bff & took photos with the sexy paul franks! :D:D smile smile.
then we went up to sleep & talked for an hour or so. by the time we slept it was like 4 plus. yiling only fell asleep an hour later and at 6am shuyi & allicia left.
19 april, sunday
by the time i woke up which was 10am. most of the people had left. the people that checked out together were me yiling brian and jacon. went to see the new tampines mall & ate burger king. after not stepping in to burger king after a long long long time, i just glared at my burger and onion rings on my tray. they were soooo small. & it was a double mushroom swiss burger somemore. DOUBLE. so small. anyway, the trip home, we talked somemore & i thank God for now i had someone from fairfield & was in the clique that stayed near me. jacon & i talked more about out school life. went home, didn't go to church (i'm so sorry) and did homework and slept.
this is the end of 1 week of activties. photos up later & more wordy posts coming up. i've still yet to edit my profiles!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
miracle
my heart is now at ease.
i know that i have a lot to do after this competition & a lot of people to answer to.
for those who know my current situation,
MIRACLE.
thank you.
MIRACLE.
thank you.
canoeing
CANOEING IS MY LIFE
i've been really fucking upset the past few days. it's nationals & there are too many bloody things that are making me lose my focus & emotions. what i really fucking don't get is i'm already in the midst of competition & what does pulling me out of competition going to do? now that you put me back in again & pour me down with so much emotional shit, it's just fucking ruining me. everyday so much of my body's water content is just wasted in crying. i've learnt my lesson already. it's none of the canoeing teachers fault, you can't blame them. it's my fault, just blame me. you want me to learn my lesson? they've done so much for me & i'm really thankful for them. i've given them much too many problems & it's my fault. do not ever ever ever, MARK them. i've learnt my lesson already. the message is clear. what do you think you can achieve by pulling me out of my race at this point of time? you pull me out 1 month ago, i'll totally understand, but NOW?! you'll just get bitterness & resentment. enough tears has been shed over this matter. i've learnt my lesson, just PLEASE give me what i've so sacrificed for. everything for my whole 2 years, it's all for this 4 days. i'm already heartbroken enough. EVERYBODY knows how much canoeing means to me & to take away what's part of me, you might as well kill me. you think i don't want to study hard too is it? i don't want canoeing to be the reason as to why my studies suck but it definitely does affect studies. you tell me, in canoeing whose studies not affected? with canoeing, i will prove to everyone that i can get my As. to me, i know that's an impossible feat but because of canoeing, i know i can do it.
The Lord is and always is my pillar & strength.
The Lord is and always is my pillar & strength.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
PUSH
I WILL PUSH ON
I WILL NOT LET MY EMOTIONS TAKE CONTROL
I WILL FOCUS
i think i really made a wise decision to go to church for maundy thursday. HE is really there for me. learning my lessons from God, is always done the hard way.
Pride
Insecurities
Pressure
Stress
anyway, on a lighter note.
LIFE IN SINGAPORE
In Singapore, the majority of us live in Highly Dangerous Buildings (HDB), and most people have already got used to Paying and Paying (PAP). Not only do you have to pay, you Pay Until Bankrupt (PUB).
If that's not enough, somebody still Purposely Wants to Dig (PWD)and get more from you. So what more can you do when you are in the Money Only Environment (MOE)? With the current Mad Accounting System (MAS), you are forced to Pay the Sum Ahead (PSA),Which will leave some people Permanently Owing Some Banks (POSB). And forced to live on the Loan Techniques Always (LTA) system.
When you fall sick and happen to be admitted to a Money Operating Hospital (MOH), You might be able to use your Cash Prior to Funeral (CPF) fund. If you are out of luck, you may meet doctors who Never Use Heart (NUH) to treat you, and you will be Sure to Give up Hope (SGH).
To help ease the traffic, motorists have to pay Cash On Expressway (COE). If that doesn't help, they can always Eternally Raise Prices (ERP)on the roads. If you don't own a car, you can always make a Mad Rush to the Train (MRT), OR get squashed in a bus Side By Side (SBS ).
Lastly, under all these pressures, there are not many places we can relax, not even the good old place we used to go because it has become So Expensive and Nothing To See Actually (SENTOSA)!
I WILL NOT LET MY EMOTIONS TAKE CONTROL
I WILL FOCUS
i think i really made a wise decision to go to church for maundy thursday. HE is really there for me. learning my lessons from God, is always done the hard way.
Pride
Insecurities
Pressure
Stress
anyway, on a lighter note.
LIFE IN SINGAPORE
In Singapore, the majority of us live in Highly Dangerous Buildings (HDB), and most people have already got used to Paying and Paying (PAP). Not only do you have to pay, you Pay Until Bankrupt (PUB).
If that's not enough, somebody still Purposely Wants to Dig (PWD)and get more from you. So what more can you do when you are in the Money Only Environment (MOE)? With the current Mad Accounting System (MAS), you are forced to Pay the Sum Ahead (PSA),Which will leave some people Permanently Owing Some Banks (POSB). And forced to live on the Loan Techniques Always (LTA) system.
When you fall sick and happen to be admitted to a Money Operating Hospital (MOH), You might be able to use your Cash Prior to Funeral (CPF) fund. If you are out of luck, you may meet doctors who Never Use Heart (NUH) to treat you, and you will be Sure to Give up Hope (SGH).
To help ease the traffic, motorists have to pay Cash On Expressway (COE). If that doesn't help, they can always Eternally Raise Prices (ERP)on the roads. If you don't own a car, you can always make a Mad Rush to the Train (MRT), OR get squashed in a bus Side By Side (SBS ).
Lastly, under all these pressures, there are not many places we can relax, not even the good old place we used to go because it has become So Expensive and Nothing To See Actually (SENTOSA)!
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
10 thoughts
10 thoughts before i sleep
#1. blogging by phone now is really easy. got used to it & am doing it now. blogging in school is actually really convenient BUT, unfortunately, starhub reception sucks in pj causing the phone to be also unable to connect to the school's wireless.
#2. stress from canoeing & studies are really hitting me hard now, even when common tests are over. i not disappointed over my pathetic results as i deserved it. still left to take back geography. maths retest is this saturday & like i have to get 60% if not DIRE CONSEQUENCES. i CANNOT FAIL IT. i'm really thankful for the teachers that i have. mr ang actually went with me to see the principal & talked to her again today. i think i'm like the most problematic captain that he's ever had. as for canoeing, i'm happy that i've come so far but frustrated with myself that i still can't freaking get my freaking strokes right & there's no freaking time left
#3. must pray before i sleep everyday. the number of times i do quiet time has depreciated alot.
#4. i really need a lot of encouragement, not putting-me-downs. reverse psychology so does not work for me. i'm not that kind.
#5. i really need a good listening ear.
#6. my birthday present to myself is a $13.90 hairbrush & $11.60 blister plaster. weird
#7. i seriously need to chiong every freaking subject after the nationals. i want that A. i'm tired of being a failure for life.
#8. the new ezlink cards, those that can be used as a cashcard, is fugly. WTH, they freaking used our PRIMARY SCHOOL PHOTO!!!!!! ugly ugly ugly. tell me, like whose primary school photo is glamorous?!
#9. i like spent $10 on monday & $10 again today & am still figuring out how were they spent.
#10. SLEEP
#1. blogging by phone now is really easy. got used to it & am doing it now. blogging in school is actually really convenient BUT, unfortunately, starhub reception sucks in pj causing the phone to be also unable to connect to the school's wireless.
#2. stress from canoeing & studies are really hitting me hard now, even when common tests are over. i not disappointed over my pathetic results as i deserved it. still left to take back geography. maths retest is this saturday & like i have to get 60% if not DIRE CONSEQUENCES. i CANNOT FAIL IT. i'm really thankful for the teachers that i have. mr ang actually went with me to see the principal & talked to her again today. i think i'm like the most problematic captain that he's ever had. as for canoeing, i'm happy that i've come so far but frustrated with myself that i still can't freaking get my freaking strokes right & there's no freaking time left
#3. must pray before i sleep everyday. the number of times i do quiet time has depreciated alot.
#4. i really need a lot of encouragement, not putting-me-downs. reverse psychology so does not work for me. i'm not that kind.
#5. i really need a good listening ear.
#6. my birthday present to myself is a $13.90 hairbrush & $11.60 blister plaster. weird
#7. i seriously need to chiong every freaking subject after the nationals. i want that A. i'm tired of being a failure for life.
#8. the new ezlink cards, those that can be used as a cashcard, is fugly. WTH, they freaking used our PRIMARY SCHOOL PHOTO!!!!!! ugly ugly ugly. tell me, like whose primary school photo is glamorous?!
#9. i like spent $10 on monday & $10 again today & am still figuring out how were they spent.
#10. SLEEP
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Friday, April 03, 2009
lyrics
katy perry - thinking of you
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do? if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the dead of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do? if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do? if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do? if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the dead of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do? if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do? if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay
Thursday, April 02, 2009
post common test
WELL, COMMON TESTS ARE OVER
& i can like finally train properly.
BUT i just had to fall sick again ):
it sucks man, this sicky feeling ):
results of common tests are like coming back & i know that i'm not going to do well in them.
medicine sucks. facebook's getting so freaking complicated, like friendster. it's been ages since i last touched friendster & i'm never going to. i still prefer the old interface of facebook.
& i can like finally train properly.
BUT i just had to fall sick again ):
it sucks man, this sicky feeling ):
results of common tests are like coming back & i know that i'm not going to do well in them.
medicine sucks. facebook's getting so freaking complicated, like friendster. it's been ages since i last touched friendster & i'm never going to. i still prefer the old interface of facebook.
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