canoeing

one sentence to describe my june holidays:
training, training, & more trainings

everybody's asking me did i have a chance to study?
the answer is YES. but, i'm not sure how in-depth it is & i so don't wanna have to rely on last minute cramming.

i throughly enjoyed the double trainings almost everyday & competition is COMING RIGHT AFTER THE EXAMS. i'm am SO GLAD, that the last training of the june intensive month, ended on a good note. THE LAST 100m that the k4 rowed (me purnima atiqah siti ), was absolutely stable & my mind was really working, as in, i was able to tell myself to twist, lock my arms, that kind of stuff... usually the k4 would have tilts here & there, BUT it didn't!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! it was ABSOLUTELY STABLE!!!!!! & cause we started late, we ended like really really late & the four of us were really bushed, so we didn't have to carry our boat. the guys helped us (: mr ang's really a nice nice guy. i'm so proud of this k4, BUT we've gotta work on speed, power, strength & most importantly, our starts.

there's so much to say that has happened but one thing that really struck me was THIS THING. okay, let's give a name to this person, X. & another person, Y. X scolds Y for hitting the boat against the shed's sides. X totally flares up at the heat of the moment & Y just keeps quiet. X continues by saying that Y has been repeating that action causing a lot of damage to the boats, but in fact, it's Y's first time. this is totally accusing Y. X's continues to yell at Y till Y & partner has 2 boats & walks off to the bay. i sooooooo wanted to say something in defense of Y & let X know that it's not right to flare up in that kind of manner. i mean, the seniors have been telling the juniors time & time again to be careful with the boats & they have been telling me to tell them to get IT inside their brains. sometimes, the way that the seniors conduct themselves is just not right & it does affect the morale of the team. however, i think it's for our own good. everybody has their mood swings & bad days.

it's hard trying to keep the team together. people are giving me lame excuses, so how would i know whether is it really geniune or fake? i really do not wish to see anybody leaving the team, we've been through so much, why drop out now just because of your parents or your studies? seriously, what i believe, if canoeing is your first priority & YOUR PASSION, you'll never let anything stand in your way. but, remember fiona, some people just don't have the understanding family that God has given you, some people just don't have what you have, you have to understand that. you just don't know how blessed YOU are. fiona, GO TO CHURCH, READ YOUR BIBLE, PRAY EVERYDAY. are YOU doing that?

it's true that canoeing leaves me dead tired everyday, but i push myself to study. sigh, i'm banging my head against the table, if ONLY I HAD A GREATER MOTIVATION.

ahh, tila tequila's HOT. the 2nd season is totally WACK! there's just SOOOO much drama, SOOOO much violence, & SOOOO much crying this time round. yayy, i love AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL. yayy, GHOST WHISPERER's back! whatever you do, DON'T watch this movie! it's FUTURAMA: THE BEAST WITH A BILLION BACKS. okay, it's okay to watch it, but DON'T waste money to go to a cinema to watch it. unless, you're a totally fan of the previous movie, BENDER'S BIG SCORE, then watch it.

just replaying those incidents;over&overagain.