today sunday

went to church today and went home after that. had to study. so many things to do. study for chem test. then do 3 stupid long and boring chinese online homework. boring shit. also need to polish boots later on. oh. by the way, the movie REAL-the movie is gone. you can only get the dvd or vcd now. really, if you're a die hard fan of real madrid, REAL is the movie for you.

argh. why is everyone asking me is that my dog on my msn avatar pic? look. it's NOT. it belongs to my aunty. it's more like the GHUI family dog.

have you ever encountered another GHUI in your life? i bet you have never did. if u have, they most probably are my cousins. see? my surname is very special. OF COURSE.

today

if you're a die hard real madrid soccer fan, REAL is the movie for you.

went orchard with shuyi sihui yibei wilson and mark tan. had some trouble deciding on a show. sigh. everytime we go out, we have trouble making decisions. wore my penguin earrings today! anyway, REAL was the movie we watched in the end. there's this part which was super funny la. it suddenly talked about soccer and it was related to physics biology and chemistry! it's freaking funny and thatt guy was like speaking so fast! hilarious. we had our movie at cineleisure cinema 6. the smallest and the most cosiest. oh yah. before the show, we had lunch. you wouldn't believe the stuff we talked! haha. also, we went arcade. both mark tan n wilson lost to shuyi at daytona! they lost to a girl! HAHA!

after the show, wilson and mark tan slipped away. left the girls. after neoprints, yibei slipped away. then all of us went home.

though this may seem not meaningful, but it's really good to have another get-together. finally. man. all the laughs we had today. :D

series of events

cross country 2006
okay. number tag : 19
my position : 13
at first, i was very depressed because of my position. from 6 to 13. i even cried. but whatever. it's the B DIVISION. and i'm not even from a sports cca. i was like thinking, i'm not from a sports cca, i don't train every week, but it's already so good to be in the 13th position. i knew that this year's cross country for me wouldn't be good. i was already half-crying in the 'forest'. on the highway, it was tiring. i didn't even bother to run faster when erin was like somewhere behing me. the slope to the highway was a killer. went to king albert's macdonalds for luch. practically the whole fairfield was there.

24th feb 06
i just feel burderned everyday. i really want to be free. i'm failing everything. i am not doing aswell as what my potential can do. chem test on monday. my mother told me to just memorise. i think i really need to go home after YE to study. i'm really doing badly. i only have amaths and emaths tuition teacher. he's good.

i cannot study or work under pressure. pressure stresses me up. if i panic/ stress out before a test, i won't be able to think. i'll completely blank out. so, i took my time for today's a maths test, it was shit. out of the 6 questions i only managed 4 and i'm not even sure i'll get full marks for all 4. it's upon 30! die. i really felt like crying today. it's really very depressing. don't wanna mention.

you may be wondering why i cry so much, well, people have been telling me to cry and not keep my sorrows inside. i don't cry. i just tear. i think i'll need to run around the neighbourhood soon. do you know running actually alleviates my mood? it kinda takes away the stress in me! haha.

series of events

valentine's day
happy BELATED valentine's day to all. haha. i'm sorry if the flowers i gave were going to die. sorry. (blame mark tan for that). i think i looked pretty silly carrying all those flowers around. luckily i'm not allergic to flowers.

tomorrow
cross country tmr!! yippee! number tag is 19. is that good? haha. how i can get one of the tops. please?

yiling birthday tmr too! HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY! haha.

man, i've been more and more forgetful.

whatever.

it's super depressing la. i failed everything but my physics, chemistry, english and the 2nd emaths test. ARGH!. study like siao and why?? failed chinese, social studies, goegraphy, 1st emaths and amaths. shucks. 3d is simply to smart. a double sci class. everythings double. shucks. my class is simply very physically fit. almost all from sports cca. haha. but not bad, physics i got 2nd highest. the physics guys are really TERRIBLE. please stop bullying miss teo. i hate wednesdays. i'm always tired on mondays. tuesdays i'm free. can i quit drama? people don't respect us councillors. only when we wear tie. idiot. super stress. if i had known earlier, i would have appealed to go to combined sci and top it. what am i good in? whats my specialty? some ppl can run fast. some ppl can talk well. some ppl can sing well. some ppl can lead well. some ppl look good. some ppl are tech smarts. i'm told to reflect. i'm a reflective thinker. according to the LSA. what am i good in?

i want to be burden free! i want to go to obs sabah! i want to go for ndp!

my memory is failing me. i can just forget. i can just blank out. really. i blanked our for like 2 secs during footdrilll before. the worse one was during physics lesson. i blanked our for 1 full minute. i had no memory or whatsoever. becoming more an more forgetful. argh

series of events

school cny celebrations
well. i wore a sarong kebaya on that day. sarah also wore one! ooh.. nice figure. haha. anyway, my class girls were enthu in dressing up but NOT the boys. i think only two boys wore an ethnic costume. haha. mark and luke. there were girls who wore qipao, cheongsam, and some others la. it was nice seeing everybody. anyway, me eunice wilson and clemence made a hamper. haha. the darlie colgate spoiled the image. it was black white and green.
after the cny celebrations, i went out with shuyi and the rest. oh. lennard was there too! people who went : the 5 ESMM, allicia, joy yeo, yiling, lennard, fernando, brian, keith, jacon, nathanael lee, jing ming and a few more others. watched FEARLESS. so touching! cried. all the girls did. fearless is jet li's last movie he's acting in. must watch. it's an nc-16 rated movie. hey. i'm ALMOST sixteen. haha. everyone of us bought a handphone accessory in all diff colours!
after outing, went to uncle's house for a pernankan dinner. he's my dad's second eldest brother. haha. dinner was great. watched mr and mrs smith. oh yeah. kochi's dog ran out of the house and ran up three stories! poor daddy and kochi had to catch it. it was a funny sight. all of the three families went to a nursery to buy plants. and over there, it was the first time in many years which i plucked a pussy willow. haha.

chinese new year eve
went for dinner with my cousins and uncles and auntys on my mother's side. my grandfather came along too. he had actually quitted smoking many years ago but i dunno why one of my uncle offered and persisted him to smoke one. such a dimwit! don't you know that this will shorten his life?! dumb. do you want our grandfather, your father to kick the bucket earlier?! siao.
after dinner, went to melodi's house.was at heritage view. another day with ewok the dog. ( surprisingly my aunty named the dog ewok ). anyway, it was like around 10pm when we set off the parachute poppers. it was quite a funny sight to see the little ones struggling to burst open the popper. haha. the way they squirm and complain. went home around 1am as we're watching some chinese new year show on tv. could see the fireworks they set off at chinatown.

chinese new year day one
woke up late. anyway it's a holiday! in the morning, had to bai nian to my parents. haha. first time i've done it in years. then as a family we set off to visit my grandparents who had already kicked the bucket. this year, the workers are quite friendly, then wished us happy new year and they even added the word sit behind. not bad. are they asking for a red packet? haha. then, we visited my daddy's cousin's mother. i have a VERY COMPLICATED family tree. then, we visited my father's mother, i call her mama. she's aging. some of the other ghui's were there! including ewok. haha. the hyper-cute dog. we then left to go to church. haha. for awhile. just attended the worship and listened to my father's scripture reading and we left. quietly. we then to guboy's house. pronounced as coo-boy. he has two daughters and one son. they are my uncles and aunties. the elder daughter is getting married somewhere in september. the younger daughter is currently in a relationship, her boyfriend is good looking and she's pretty. then the son, he's sec4 and he's my uncle. he has pierced ears. two on his left ear. do you know if a guy pierce his right ear, he's a gay? he's so cool. and good looking too. he looks very familiar. he's name is super unique. i don't even know how to spell it! it's pronounced as grillkris or grillchris or krillchris or whatever la. super unique name. he plays the drums. like my bro. he's super shy la. he only plays the drum when only youngsters like us are around, if there are adults in his room, he won't play. had dinner at his house. wonderful dinner. oh he likes vegetables too. i think. on this day i was wearin orange and white. went home after that. oh happy birthday wilson.

chinese new year day two
woke up extremely late. but it's okay, holiday! went to mama's house for lunch. it was sherwin's birthday! ewok was there again. anyway the troupe consisted of my family, melodi's family, kochi n husband and stacey's family. we all set off and went to houses. visiting. house to house to house to house to house to house to house to house. bushed out. last house was melodi's grandmother's house. we kids gambled using scrabble words as coins to play the game poker and banluck. err. sorry. no real money involved. went home pretty late. oh. on this day, i was wearing white and blue.

030206
had lessons in the morning. usual school life. it's become a routine. study like siao for five weekdays then rest and blank out during the two weekends. life's like that. argh.. eyebags. oh also, i'm still not accustommed to the guys wearing their long pants. it's been only 3 days? as for red cross, we played captain's ball with oranges and capsicum. stinks. also, i'm sorry for stepping on people's feet. i jump, you come near, i land on you. after red cross, i was sooo stressed out that i went for a run. 8 rounds only la. around our school track. 2.4km. i think i did it in like 11mins plus. could have done faster if there weren't red cross. argh. cross country's coming. preparation.

friends

friends you make me happy

bring sunshine to my life

a light of hope you always are

standing by me near and far

lending me your shoulder

when i need to cry

you're par t of my life friend

forever in my heart

TOMORROW cny celebrations

haha. i'll be wearing something malay. likee it? haha. i'll be looking so shy. oops. haha. i hope the rest won't pang seh. they better not.

shucks

oh wells. we lost talentime competition BUT it's not the winning that counts but the process :)

man. i don't know what's going on in my life. everything's so messed up. why? argh. so frustrating.

i just want to be free! no worries! it's been a long time since i last had that. no worries, no problems. i really want that. everyday i worry. i worry about this and that.and everything. i think about this and that and everything. this is so idiot. when can i have a day and only think about happy things :)

i want to be smiling all the time. be happy :D

talentime competition, TOMORROW

man oh man oh man oh man oh man. talentime competitions TOMORROW.

here's a brief intro. a talentime competition is a competition to showcase one's talents in dancing, singing or acting. whichever you prefer. so, me, fion, amanda, ruth and desiree, have come together and formed this singing group to participate in the competition. won't say the group name. anyway, we're singing the national day song, reach out for the skies. you must be thinking like errr...

man, i'm not doing well in my studies. i think. my first test has just ended. i failed my maths test. the worst i have ever done. emaths is simply tough. i like amaths so far. chinese is simply crazy. the teacher just talks so profund. idiot. she talks fast and very chim. and kinda looks like harry potter. haha. oops sorry. english is simply mad. compositions, the minimum words one can write is 300! it's a breeze. really. geography. so much facts to remember. social studies is fun.

arr. why must cross country be so near chinese new year? when am i going to grow taller? when will i like chinese and maths? why am i so busy?

anyway, i want to go to OBS sabah. but it's 900dollars+++. that's a lot. even though it's not my money, i feel the pinch. according to last year seniors, it was like 600+++only. then for OBS local, this year it's 300dollars+++, last year it was 100+++only! what the.

i want to join NDP this year. it'll be a must for me to participate for the fairfield story musical. i'm in drama. i'm in red cross. i'm in chapel band. i'm in council. man oh man oh man.

saturday

whoo. i was able to wake up late today. around 9am. it seems the more i sleep, the lesser pimples i have. haha. anyway, i had tuition from amaths and emaths. my teacher is good! whew. i managed to clear my doubts on the completing of the square problem. on friday, there was some sports conference for the south zone so we councillors had to do duties. i was at first assigned to carpark c with alvin but later was posted to ushering in the hall. man was it fun. me wilson nirma rachel meng and weijie. 6 of us. haha. later 5 of us, excluding rachel, served the guests in the hall food. man. there were some advantage. while serving the guests food, all our stomachs could be heard rumbling. miss fiona tan allowed us to have the leftovers. boy was it delicious. there was tons of food leftover. the food was even given to the teachers and cleaners! haha. after changing and stuff, wilson and i went back to class. 15mins before sch ended. haha.

a day

define blind.

what if one day you wake up to see only blackness.
you try to find light.
no.
that doesn't work.
you panic.

you become afraid.
you start to cry.
you wonder what would happen in the future.

what if this happens to you one day?
will it happen to me?
all i can do,
is PRAY.

cross country

i want to join cross country THIS YEAR! please class captains, please let me..

i got 6th last year! and i'm not even from a sports cca! please!.. :(

i really want to represent the class

orientation 06

orientation 2005, i took 1i. a normal technical class.boy, they were a bunch of bad girls and bad boys.

orientation 2006.
i have taken 1g. and they rock! i just hope they don't turn into those bad boys and bad girls. i hope they won't get influenced by the older people. i really don't want them to. i just want them to remain in their innocent kiddy throughout their entire fairfield life. and duh i know that's impossible.

this year's batch are really shy but already 'polluted'. they have already started to fold their skirts, socks low and messy hair.

my partners for this orientation are Wilson and Mary.

i'm just gonna copy and paste what i wrote for my reflections into here.

Orientation 06

What I expected

I was pretty nervous to meet 1G. I also had high hopes of 1G due to the experience of taking 1I last year. I expected 1G to be enthusiastic, happy all the time, enjoying the time they have with the councilors and appreciating the games we have for them. I wanted to know everyone of them. I wanted them to respect me and I would respect them.

What I experienced

On the first day of orientation, it turned out not well. They weren’t interested in the games. Mary and Wilson were quite angry. Wilson was shouting with all his might and still, 1G was still not listening. I asked a few on their opinions on what game would they like to play and they said catching. It was frustrating for me that they have not realized that they were already secondary one and have not broken off from their childish habits. It was really disappointing to see that 1G weren’t co-operating with us. It really lowered our spirits but we still kept on going. 1G took their own time. They walked slowly. They ate slowly. They still had their childish attitudes. I think I understood what was happening. The few reasons were that it was their first day of school, they came from all different primary schools, they were shy and they relied on their new cliques for support.

The second day, Wilson and I agreed that we would go slowly on them and he would apologize to them for shouting at them. We would also tell them our expectations of them and re-introduce ourselves. On this day, I was quite glad, as some of them have opened themselves up to us.

On the third day, almost the whole class as opened up to us. I even managed to open up some tough ones. Talentime preparations. The class wasn’t co-operating. Wilson and I were very worried. We just sat down and thought. I could see that Wilson was very frustrated. Then, my mind went ‘ding!’ shared my idea with him.

On the fourth day, there was track and field CCA selections. They had to run like 5 rounds altogether. I ran with them to suffer with them and strengthen friendships with them. This was talentime night. I was very nervous for our class’s skit. I was unsure whether would it work. While they were acting, I was panicking out backstage at the curtains. It turned out that our class got FIRST. I was exhilarated.

What I have gained

I learnt that you have to wait for one to open up slowly and to help them; you’ve got to laugh with them, suffer with them, and do funny and embarrassing actions with them.

anyway,

ANDY KIM - you're really a small little cute guy. don't give up on badminton. practise more!
CLINTON CHENG - you. are. one. irritating guy.
BOAZ CHEONG - please be more enthu! this is the second time i've taken you for orientation! you can be so good in basketball and why not games in orientation?
CHERYL NG - you're a great girl
JAZREEL CHUAN - why were you crying? could you tell me? but i was glad when u made friends and being happy. i thought we were too fierce.
EMILY KHOO - don't be shy, be brave
GABRIEL CHAN - my first impression of you was that you were some sort of a bad boy. but actually, you were not. you turned out to be great! i guess i shouldn't judge a book by it's cover. you're great. really.
HOE XIN RUI - i don't like you one bit.
LEONG KIT SING - you really sound and look like your bro.
LIM YUPEI - you go gal!
LIM WEI RONG - haha. you really look like the glenn from volleyball. you're so cute. when you smile, i can't see your eyes! and please, do not pull my hair. please.
LOO SHIRONG - you're a second year too. buck up on ur studies and jia you!
MERNEL KOH - you're real pretty. and please, guys have feelings too kay. don't beat them
OLIVIA OW - must remember to come to YE! you already have to friends in YE! me and joanna!
JEAN - you're good. keep that enthusiasm up!
KEITH SIM - you're a great guy. really!!
STEPHEN - i like your enthu-es! make more friends!
TIFFANY TAN - i know who you like..
WAYNE TAN - don't fight and listen.
ZHENG ZHIYUN - take care of yourself. u're in track and field. if you feel your lungs squeezing, get a paper bag and breathe thru it. better keep one in your bag for safety. and please mind your language kay. you really look pretty when you smile. smile more!

potluck
i'm glad you ppl laughed during this time. especially mernel and megan that table.
dearest sec1s, i'm sorry i don't know all your names. i know ur faces but not ur name. by the way i have your pictures!

take a look

this is so true man.

http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com/2005/06/20-pose-ideas_28.html

church dinner

yesterday was church dinner. boy. there was lots of laughter. everbody looked beautiful and handsome. haha. there was events such as lucky draw, limbo, celebrating of couples' anniversaries and of course dinner! it was delicious. haha. these were the people at TABLE 7.



haha. gary's good at limbo. there was a skit too. it was on romeo and juliet. the couples part was that the males would have to pin a rose on their females and the females would have to pin an orchid on the males. well i only took the 15-20years of togetherness group photo.



the background looks so chinese wedding-ish. haha. oh yeah. we also played truth and dare. man. i think our table was the most noiseist because there were the most youths and 2 pairs of newlyweds. all still young at heart. so gary kena the most times. he got one truth and two dares. so, he had to eat this weird mixture of red chilli, dried chilli, green chilli, chicken, tea, soya sauce and water. that's all i think. i think there's more. so yeah.

lazing

right now, i'm just lazing around. still have social studies homework to do. and somehow, i can't do my chinese fei chang yue du, because my parents threw it away while spring cleaning. wo. lucky me. i can't stand chinese homework. man. miss hia is gonna be my form teacher. do u know what this means? either i quickly quit drama or i cannot play truant for drama. yikes!

will be going for church dinner tonight and have to wear any outfit that is smart and casual. so, i'm wearing my new skirt n top and shoes. and will be carryin a handbag. stop. what has come over me??! why am i becoming more and more ladylike? poof. luckily i still hate pink. yesterday during shopping, i accidentally promised my mother that i'll wear a dress next year. oops. anyway, i promised myself that i'll only wear a dress when i'm sec4.

a few weeks ago, i discovered that our school does not have a prom or graduation night or whatever. just a graduation service. boo.

yes! i have made joanna wear a skirt to tonight's dinner!! yes! whoohoo! steph wants to wear a dress. it's okay with me. sexy man. haha.

haha

my sister is dressed in total pink.
and me, in total blue.
haha.

back

okay. i'm back from cambodia and china and have been extrememly lazy to blog. christmas is over. honestly i didn't feel any christmas spirit this year even though i was more generous this year. i bought more gifts for more ppl.

i don't really want to blog anymore about china. i'll just state what i can remember.
1. the beijing's soldiers are all really cute.
2. not much litter
3. in every guys toilets, there will be a male condom vending machine.
4. the temp in beijing chengde and tianjin was around -18degrees celsius to -23degrees celsius
5. scenery was beautiful
6. ice skating can be done without wearing skates. just wear ur shoes
7. all toilets in the city are equipped wil automatic sensor taps

stuff that i remember on the china trip.
i wore like 6 layers of clothes. made me look fat. the food was super oily but was delicious.went skiing. i perspired even though it was so cold. there were tv stars there and they were doing like some kind of documentary on snow sports. i think i may be on china tv. haha. even though it was cold. i felt warm but not when the winds blow. chilly winds.

cambodia trip

it was great!! it was like open environment air conditioned. i always felt cold. the winds were cold. nights and mornings were cold. the food there was so salty! i had the best time there. in phnom penh, we stayed in the hotel. i was saving my US money till the shopping day where i bought lots of stuff. haha. here's what i bought. 6 kromas, 1 book, 6 incense sticks and 2 DVDs. that's all i think. the only thing i was not used to was in takeo, cow dung and dog shit were everywhere. tons of insects too. i like the paddy fields.

the first day at takeo, i made a new friend. it's a guy and he's 6? i dunno. he's name is chew. he was very shy for like 2 days. but he opened up more as the days passed. on like the 3rd day,when we were doing visitations, he held my hand. haha. i wish i brought my camera to take photos. man! he's so cute. then there's this smart kid. he's 13. his name is nou(nul). he cried on the 4th night as somebody pulled his pants down. i mean like he's THIRTEEN. he was really smart.

don't think that cambodia,takeo is a old fashioned left behind place. it is not. the kids do play truant. they give excuses like their uniform is wet, their teachers are out at the paddy fields and they just want to spend time with us. haha.

shaun's little girlfriend was called liak. she's so cute and pretty. haha. on the 4th day, i told her that shaun likes her then she blushed. haha. oops. she held my hand too. she's a danity little girl.

kenneth had a little girlfriend too. don't know her name but i kinda stole her away from kenneth. haha. in the 4th night when she came running to me, i was like so touched and so sad that i'll have to leave her.

then there was pang and dou. both girls. pang was the one which wore the britney spears tee on the 1st day. she's really cute too. the dou was the one who skipped sch to see us. haha.

then there's ho. a guy. he keeps on stepping on our slippers, shoes, sandals. when shirely wanted to step on his slippers, she saw that it was already in a lousy condition, so she refrained herself.

the next time the next team goes up, I WANT THEM TO GIVE OUT clothes, slippers, hair accessories, stationery. not all but most important slippers. i know we can't be santa claus. but i really the way they smile and say thank you to me when i help or give them something.

during this trip, i felt that i have more that what i really need. those ppl in takeo can just be happy with their simple stuff. when my mother asked me what i wanted for christmas, i felt that i didn't need anything. before the trip i wanted an ipod but now i think i don't need it. even though i am putting up my wishlist but i think i don't really need it. i even have a silk blanket.

christmas day
SHUYI! i love you so much! why? because you came to MY CHURCH. i was so happy!

after service, we, YE, went for dinner at uncle meng wee's cafe. it was called MAD JACK. it turns out that about 40 ppl went. more than what moses expected. haha. it was great. at our table, was joanna me steph elijah mark n kim. haha. i had fish n chips. mark had baked rice and the rest of us had fish n chips too. but elijah had chicken chop. haha. when we finished, his food came. haha. in like 2mins later, he finished it all! we bullied him to serve us. haha. after dinner, everyone lazed around. my table talked. then played with the cards that paul brought. first they played bridge. i just watched. paul and elijah was good. then it was tai-ti. haha. i played first with paul steph n mark i think. haha. i wonder how paul shuffled the cards. in my hand, i had ALL 4 ACES!! and one 2 DIAMONDS and 2 QUEENS and 1 KING. wo. and of course, i won. haha. the next round, paul won. then i gave my turn to elijah. gerald joined in. he had a lucky hand and he won. haha.

man. that day was great. we played ate and lazed around. then moses sent me n bro back with his family too.

beijing chengde tianjin

heyy people. i am back form china. went to beijing chengde and tianjin. so the below stuff are just what i journalled during the trip.

4th december
reached the airport(singapore) then rushed for my plane and to beijing's airport. my breakfast at the airport was a ham and mozarella baguette. yummy. anyway airplane food is great man. i don't know why people don't like it. anyway, a day hasn't even passed and i'm missing everybody. haha. i brought a soft toy along. haha. i know i am VERY CHILDISH. but i like that, i'm still young and ONLY FOURTEEN. haha. it's name is kamkam. haha. it's a cat. i think. had the most deliciousdinner. a sichuan one. by the way, it was super cold the moment we stepped out of the airport. it was minus14degrees. MINUS!! went to bed around 11pm

5th december
haha. a funny thing but i was dreaming of SHAUN CHEN. haha. that handsome guy from heartlanders. haha. not other shauns or shawns or whatever. by the way i'm staying in a five star hotel. jade palace hotel.

leavingg..

hey everybody, i'll be leaving for china, beijing from 4th december to 13 december. which is tmr. haha. would be leaving in the morning. would wake up at 6.15am and leave house at 7am and the plane would take off at 9.30am and would reach beijing by 3.30pm. haha. and of course i would not be bringing my handphone along. haha. my parents are very strict about this. would be missing everybody in singapore. sobs. and of course i would get you people stuff from china. haha

HAPPY

yes! yes! yes! i'm am dark! well..at least my neck and my face and my legs area. haha. i'm dark! all thanks to footdrill!. gosh. how can i ever express my love for it! haha.