REVIVE

I'm thinking of changing this whole space. An outlet to express my creativity, thoughts, and mostly creativity. It'll give me something to do when my final semester ends. I know the 'creative' line is probably where I wanna be at in the future but not so sure yet. I hope this will be a good platform to do so. It could be a lifestyle blog but more 'artistic'.

Thinking of new names for this space. 'mysticalbluechain' was something I created when I was young to play some MMORPG game. I used 'bluechain' for many nicknames cause I really like the color blue and 'chain' meant 'together' or 'tough', like a metal anchor chain. And I guess mystical was there cause I believed in fairies, magic, wizards? HAHA, but all that's in the past, in my childish mind... & I'm currently still thinking of names.

1. fimakes
2. shemakes
3. fionamakes
4. makespecial
5. fionally
6. makespiration
7. fidesign
8. designale
9. sincerelyfiona
10. feelslikefiona
11. fionabanana
12. fionnaaa
13. finefiona
14. fionasays
15. hellofiona
16. helloitsfiona
17. thisisfiona
18. ilikeit
19. fispiration
20. artispiration
21. artspiration
22. wellmade
23. wellmadefiona
24. fionadesigns
25. fionable
26. absolutelyfiona
27. ???

I am going nowhere with these names. I just got to let it come to me then.

emo nemo

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Hi, my name is Fiona and I am a shopaholic. I spend a lot and hardly safe. I scrimp on the wrong kind of stuff and lavish on the wrong kind of stuff.

food, give me food

Now that IVP's over, I just wanna drown my sorrows and frustrations in stupid shows and binging on food. Reading my Bible is quite a comfort. I hate how we make life so complicated when God already settled everything for us. Curse you satan. Curse you demons and spirits that play with our thoughts and tug at our heart strings.

FLEA FLEA FLEA

Had a flea at ForFleaSake's Sunday Parade at Scape. Cleared out a lot of clothes at super dirt cheap prices ): Made a profit but I believe it could have been much better if I brought all the accessories and knick knacks that I don't use anymore. It sure was hectic and mad rushing today.

The whole day was almost perfect. I've just gotta mind my words more and speak carefully from now on. Maybe I should just shut up forever and become introverted. I kinda find my effort to be outgoing and 'noisy' not paying off. I feel it's just so hard to please so many people.

Dreams

Last night, I dreamt about vampires. I dreamt that it was a vampire in training.

Testing and Tempting

Happy are those who remain faithful under trials, because when they succeed in passing such a test, they will receive as their reward the life which God has promised to those who love him. If people are tempted by such trials, they must not say, “This temptation comes from God.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, and he himself tempts no one. But people are tempted when they are drawn away and trapped by their own evil desires. Then their evil desires conceive and give birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death. Do not be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters! Every good gift and every perfect present comes from heaven; it comes down from God, the Creator of the heavenly lights, who does not change or cause darkness by turning. By his own will he brought us into being through the word of truth, so that we should have first place among all his creatures. (James 1:12-18 GNB)

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It's like, I don't think I can do anything right in my life. Like nothing ever goes right. Nothing really happens the way I want it to be. Today's another of those kind of days where I just feel totally defeated. Even if I wanna cry about it, I can't even do so. I just wanna slumber till the day ends and wake up feeling refreshed for a new day of challenges awaits. I just wanna be alone and emo by myself. I just don't know why I can't get this done right. I really want a time whereby I can sit back and look at what I've done and say, 'Yes Fiona, well done, you gave your 100%'. But the time is not now, so I've just got to continue to try and keep my head high and plaster a smile in my face. But today, just let me sink my head as low as possible. It's like I'm never strong enough. Never pretty enough. Never smart enough. Never frugal enough. Never tall enough. Never fast enough. I would like to say, 'Look at how far you have come', but that is not the case. Seriously, where do I stand in life? Yes, I do know that there's God's life path for me and the whole 'thy word is a lamp onto my feet and a light to my path', but sometimes I just get so sick of it. I wanna see the futureeee! I just can't understand why am I feeling so defeated today. Well shit happens

shorts shorts short shorts

Christmas presents to myself (:

say a little prayer

Because of what Jesus has done for you at the cross, all your sins — past, present and future — are forgiven. God will by no means ever remember your sins or count them against you! (Hebrews 8:12, 10:17)

My friend, because Jesus has been punished for your sins, today, God is not counting your sins against you. This means that your sins won’t stop Him from hearing and responding to your prayers. So you can always run into His presence knowing that you can boldly stand in and enjoy His presence and His love.

When you know this truth, it is going to set you free in your relationship with God. You can talk to Him without fear or any sense of condemnation. You can practice His presence and trust that He always hears you. Should something happen at home or at work, you don’t always have to call for your church leaders — you pray and God hears you!

the right way to pray

Got this from Pastor Prince's Daily Devotional e-mail, i wish I could pray the right way all the time :D

Philippians 4:6
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

You would probably have read this verse before, but would you like to know how to apply it in your everyday life? Let me give you an illustration to help you.

Let’s say that you are one of those in your company eligible for a promotion and you will know tomorrow whether you get it. You want the promotion badly because it means more income for your family. So you lie in bed at night tossing and turning. You pray, “Father, please take away all my worries about this promotion. Give me faith.” One hour later, you are more anxious than ever. It seems like God is not answering your prayer!

How come? Because you are not doing it God’s way.

Pray like this instead: “Father, I cast all my worries about the promotion into Your loving hands because You care for me and love me.” The Bible tells us to cast all our cares upon the Lord for He cares for us. (1 Peter 5:7) Then, say, “Father, I would like to have the promotion.” It is okay to ask Him for that. Now, here comes the most powerful part — thanksgiving. Finish off with thanksgiving. Thank God for His faithfulness.

Say something like, “Father, whether I get the promotion or not, I thank You that You will always provide for my family with more than enough. You who feed the birds of the air and clothe the lilies of the field will take care of us. So I am not going to worry about this promotion. You are the source of all my blessings.” (Matthew 6:30, Philippians 4:19)

When you pray like this, all of a sudden, you are no longer held hostage by the promotion. I call this the “thank You” therapy. The more you know God’s Word, the more you can thank Him. The more you thank Him, the more His peace reigns in your heart. And many a time, before you know it, it is morning! You don’t even remember falling asleep. The peace of God reigns like that.

My friend, whatever your concern is, bring it to your Father in prayer and thank your way to peace!

one more night

OMG. Just one more night of burning the midnight oil! 1000 word essay for UGC112 stands before me and sem break! I do foresee a few more study nights because of the final exam on 3 Dec; but after that, every other night would be 'burnt' by catching up on my shows (:

*Some Indian guy just stepped so hard on my feet because he lost balance. I've been stepped on so many times in my past 21 years of taking public transport, but just now's incident totally takes the cake. & Fiona being Fiona, will always say no worries it's okay and smile while the pain is still throbbing

One more semester to go and I'll be done with university education! Fast or what! As much as I still feel that my education experience could have been better if I went to either of the local unis, I thank God for placing me here at SIM-UB. I know I still have resentment of being 'not so smart and no choice but have to study at SIM', one day, just one day, I would look back and thank God for paving the way for me to go to SIM-UB. One day I'll look back and praise God for the many things that have happened since Fall 2010. Just look, if I didn't enroll at UB, I wouldn't have met Edwin; and we wouldn't have started this wonderful relationship of 1 year and 1 month (:

do do do

Things to do after exams:

1. Create a video for DFC

2. Create Dot's 21st video

3. Work & get $$$

4. Exercise and eat healthy

all glory goes to Him

I'm thinking it's all his doing; all his help. Been doing some design/creative stuff. And they really do come like one after the other. It's great, keep em' coming! But I realized that at the same time, I procrastinate a lot or there's really no time to do it. I guess it's to prepare me for the real world? And I've to really manage my time well? So Lord, I thank you for the continuous blessing and opportunities that allow me to push myself to manage my time well.

So many things to do, so little time.

I have conquered a mountain

COM398 Project, CHECK. COM443 Project, CHECK. Even though it's just two checks, those two projects were major. Glad that it's all over for now. All that's remaining are my UGC112 essay and final exams before my actual holidays start! I feel like I've accomplished so much this semester. I've learnt a lot, made many new friends, learnt so much at work (both at Energia and Jipaban), improved my creative/design skills, fell in love a lot more deeply. However, on the physical fitness point of view, I've stopped running seriously. SIM T&F isn't my priority, my overall body is. I try to juggle between muay thai and running more consistently, but the time I have now just does not permit it. As much as I would like to represent school to run or to fight, I know that I'll never make it into the Top 3, so why bother? Yes, I can gain experience from the whole thing but it's just me being really logical and rationalizing everything. Seriously, why train soooo hard when there is no award? I like winning, but I'll participate if I know that if I can win. I know this is like some cockup mindset but seriously, who doesn't love winning? Winning a simple game of just scissors-paper-stone already brings much happiness.

Anyway, I typed this just to get it off my chest. Let's play some music!

die young

Love the artistic direction of ke$ha's new music video. Love how it's done and all the effects. Wish that someday I can produce a film like this or something. Hahaha. But way too many satanic imagery and illuminati references.

December Will Come Rolling Any Moment

October just passed and boy was it a hectic week. Relied on prayers & God a lot. Call it self-fufilling prophecy, optimism or whatever, prayers and having faith in the Lord works. There are countless number of times whereby I get through days with so little sleep. I am seriously amazed everytime that happens and when the hectic day ends. I somehow secretly enjoy the sleep that I take when I'm exhausted on Wednesdays. I collapse into my bed and completely knock out. I wish I didn't have to wake up ): I secretly enjoy the deep sleep that I get when I don't have enough sleep.

Anyway, pictures! These are the paper templates that I do for my own personal use for my iphone 5 covers. I modified an iphone psd template to fit this iphone 5 silicon case. It's basically printing it out and cutting it. Had to do a lot of trial and error and the template is still not perfect yet. Should I really turn this into a business? I really don't know whether people would pay $$$ for a piece of paper to be slotted into the case. Edwin says that I should sell the case AND the paper cover.